Eight Kinky Nights

Eight Kinky Nights is a contemporary f/f romance by Xan West.

Eight Kinky Nights final cover

out 12/16/19

cover design by Hannah Zayit

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Sometimes the perfect Chanukah gift can change everything.

Newly divorced stone butch Jordan moves into her friend Leah’s spare room, ready, at 49, to take on a new job and finally explore kink and polyamory. But moving to NYC during the holidays sends grief crashing through her, and Jordan realizes that when she isn’t solely focused on caring for others, her own feelings are unavoidable. Including her feelings for Leah.

51 year old queer femme Leah, an experienced submissive kink educator who owns a sex shop, has recently come to terms with being gray ace and is trying to rework her life and relationships to honor that.

Leah has a brainstorm to help them both: she offers Jordan eight kink lessons, one for each night of Chanukah, to help Jordan find her feet as a novice dominant, and to create a structured space where Leah can work on more deeply honoring her own consent, now that she knows she’s gray ace.

She’d planned to keep it casual, but instead the experience opens cracks in the armor Leah’s been using to keep people at a distance and keep herself safe. Now she needs to grapple with the trauma that’s been impacting her life for years.

Can these two autistic queers find ways to cope with the changes they are making in their lives and support each other, as they build something new they hadn’t thought was possible?

This kinky polyamorous Chanukah f/f romance includes a friends to lovers, roommates to lovers, kink lessons, seasoned romance and getting your groove back tropes, and polyamorous, gray ace, pansexual, Jewish, fat, autistic, disabled, arthritis, PTSD and depression representation. 

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Advance reviews

“Eight Kinky Nights is unapologetically Kinky, queer, autistic, and Jewish, and I love it for that!…Reading this book in a lot of ways feels like being seen for the first time when it comes to the autistic representation. The rep is OwnVoices and it shows. Both Leah and Jordan are autistic, as are several secondary characters, and seeing them allowed to be authentically themselves is so freeing.” —Laura

Content Warnings

  • Autistic characters getting overwhelmed, going non-verbal, experiencing meltdowns and shutdowns. Includes references to memory difficulties related to meltdowns.
  • References to and descriptions of chronic pain.
  • Both MCs have PTSD and experience nightmares, flashbacks, panic attacks, intrusive thoughts.
  • MC with depression. References to depression flares in the past.
  • References to MC with depression experiencing suicidality in the past
  • References to parental depression and child neglect stemming from that depression.
  • References to parental death from suicide in the past.
  • Grief from loss of parent in the past is a significant part of the story; death anniversary occurs and is honored during the course of the story.
  • References to parental emotional abuse and norming around autism. References to familial fat hatred and fat hating abuse from family. References to family being controlling.
  • Alcohol use. References to being drunk, and fuzzy memory due to alcohol.
  • Use of the term “queer” as a reclaimed slur.
  • References to an ex being anti-kink.
  • References to sexual partners in the past that pressured the stone MC to be sexually receptive and touch receptive.
  • References to an ex being a TERF, a public confrontation around her TERFiness, and discussion of transmisogyny in queer kink community, and activist efforts to change it.
  • References to ableism and norming from allistic partners, including setting expectations of masking in the context of kink.
  • References to D/s relationship in the past that included elements of dubious consent, sexual pressure and emotional abuse, and trauma from that relationship.
  • Moment in the story where the MC is in the same space as her abusive ex and scared what she might do.
  • References to having sex that was technically consented to but not wanted, and that causing trauma.
  • Moment of accidental non-consensual service, challenged on the page.
  • Sex on the page, including fisting, group sex, strap-on sex, masturbation, mutual masturbation. All of the sex in this book involves some element of pain play or power exchange.
  • Consensual kink is central to the story, is discussed and depicted throughout the story. Kink depicted includes D/s, pain play, sensation play, orgasm control, genital torture, bondage, collaring and using a leash, play with sharps (scissors). Kink includes solo play, pair play and one group scene. Some of the kink takes place at a play party. Some of the kink is sexualized and involves sexual activity.  Much of the kink is non-sexual.