On Jonah’s Book, and Centering My Disabled Perspective

This post was written for Blogging Against Disablism Day 2017. In 2013 I began working on what I think of as Jonah’s Book. (It doesn’t have a proper title yet.) I had read Alison Tyler’s Dark Secret Love, and its sequel The Delicious Torment, and begun to contemplate a project playing with a similar mix […]

Support me by buying Show Yourself To Me

So, as you likely know, I am facing homelessness, and have launched a crowdfunding campaign. You can also help me another way. My amazing publisher, Go Deeper Press, has generously promised to give me 100% of royalties of ebook sales for my queer kink erotica collection Show Yourself To Me! Buy the ebook here, and I […]

Safewords in Kink Life and in Kink Fiction

As a heads up, this post will discuss consent in BDSM at length and with nuance, and will reference an abusive BDSM relationship briefly, without giving details. A few words about safewords Some kinky folks absolutely believe that safewords are necessary across the board for everyone. Some believe that it might be different with experienced […]

Fat Heroines in M/F Romance

It’s hard to find a good m/f romance centering a fat heroine. Mostly what I find is characters with lots of self-loathing, who diet continuously, cover up immediately after sex, and assume that the hero doesn’t really want them or that a thin woman is going to steal him. Sometimes, if I get lucky, the […]

Favorite Romances I Read in 2016

Hard Earned Happy Endings Heartbeat Braves by Pamela Sanderson, because I don’t think I’ve ever read a more satisfying hard-earned happy ending, ever. Nothing Like Paris by Amy Jo Cousins, because I wasn’t sure they could figure out how to be together, pretty much til the end, and wasn’t sure how one of the main characters was […]

Xan Reads Smut: A recording of “What I Need”

For the last three months, I posted audio recordings from the book, one per month. Here is October’s recording of A Large Full Meal. Here is November’s recording of Willing. This month, you can listen to me read an abridged version of “What I Need”, an erotica story from my collection Show Yourself To Me: […]

One Disabled Sadist’s Response to Risk Aware by Amelia C. Gormley

Earlier this week, I asked Twitter for recommendations of books that centered characters with chronic pain, characters that were not cure-seeking and do not get cured. One book that was recommended was Risk Aware by Amelia C. Gormley. It’s an M/M BDSM romance with a main character, Geoff, who has hemophilia, and has never found […]