On Internalizing the Cis Gaze When Thinking About Sex and Relationships

As a heads up, this essay tells several detailed stories about transmasculine people internalizing the cis gaze and passing those messages on to other transmasculine people, particularly with regards to sex, dating, romance, and relationships, and the representation of trans and/or non-binary people in romance and erotica. It includes descriptions of cissexism and internalized trans […]

An excerpt from Claiming

I thought I would share an excerpt from a story I’m working on that’s tentatively titled “Claiming” about the crush that got away, who just might be back again. It’s a butch/femme story, about two fat queer women, one bisexual, one queer identified, written from the butches point of view. I’ve been thinking a lot these […]

Favorite Romances I Read in 2016

Hard Earned Happy Endings Heartbeat Braves by Pamela Sanderson, because I don’t think I’ve ever read a more satisfying hard-earned happy ending, ever. Nothing Like Paris by Amy Jo Cousins, because I wasn’t sure they could figure out how to be together, pretty much til the end, and wasn’t sure how one of the main characters was […]

Xan Reads Smut: A recording of “What I Need”

For the last three months, I posted audio recordings from the book, one per month. Here is October’s recording of A Large Full Meal. Here is November’s recording of Willing. This month, you can listen to me read an abridged version of “What I Need”, an erotica story from my collection Show Yourself To Me: […]

One Disabled Sadist’s Response to Risk Aware by Amelia C. Gormley

Earlier this week, I asked Twitter for recommendations of books that centered characters with chronic pain, characters that were not cure-seeking and do not get cured. One book that was recommended was Risk Aware by Amelia C. Gormley. It’s an M/M BDSM romance with a main character, Geoff, who has hemophilia, and has never found […]

Xan Reads Smut: A recording of “Willing”

For the next three months, I will be posting audio recordings from the book, one per month. Here is October’s recording of A Large Full Meal. This month, you can listen to me read an abridged version of “Willing”, my most romantic story, centering a vampire taking a risk on a boy he might claim […]

Jax and Rickie’s First Kiss

The past few days, I posted things that I thought might be a balm or a comfort to folks reeling from these awful election results, and the subsequent violence and fear we are living under right now. Today, I thought I would share one of the sweeter moments in my current work in progress, Shocking […]