Fat Heroines in M/F Romance

It’s hard to find a good m/f romance centering a fat heroine. Mostly what I find is characters with lots of self-loathing, who diet continuously, cover up immediately after sex, and assume that the hero doesn’t really want them or that a thin woman is going to steal him. Sometimes, if I get lucky, the […]

Xan Reads Smut: A recording of “What I Need”

For the last three months, I posted audio recordings from the book, one per month. Here is October’s recording of A Large Full Meal. Here is November’s recording of Willing. This month, you can listen to me read an abridged version of “What I Need”, an erotica story from my collection Show Yourself To Me: […]

One Disabled Sadist’s Response to Risk Aware by Amelia C. Gormley

Earlier this week, I asked Twitter for recommendations of books that centered characters with chronic pain, characters that were not cure-seeking and do not get cured. One book that was recommended was Risk Aware by Amelia C. Gormley. It’s an M/M BDSM romance with a main character, Geoff, who has hemophilia, and has never found […]

Xan Reads Smut: A recording of “Willing”

For the next three months, I will be posting audio recordings from the book, one per month. Here is October’s recording of A Large Full Meal. This month, you can listen to me read an abridged version of “Willing”, my most romantic story, centering a vampire taking a risk on a boy he might claim […]

Editing to Include Top Vulnerability

As a heads up, this blog post describes editing a story that includes edge play, intense D/s, psychological sadism, pain play, humiliation and objectification, and play with misogyny and whorephobia. It contains excerpts from the story that include misogynist and whorephobic slurs. The title of the story also contains a slur. The excerpts are marked […]

Listen to me read “A Large Full Meal”

It’s the anniversary of the release of my queer kink erotica collection, Show Yourself To Me! To honor it, for the next three months, I will be posting audio recordings from the book, one per month. This month, you can listen to me read “A Large Full Meal”, a story about two transmasculine queer tops […]

One Top’s Perspective On Talking Publicly About Kink Relationships and Exes

When I publicly tell stories about my own kink experiences (which I do quite frequently both as a kink educator and on this site), it is primarily in service of a goal: to illustrate something I’m trying to explain, to make a point, to give context, to articulate something about myself or something I’ve learned, […]